No photo with this one…wouldn’t know what to use. Need to find one which is all question marks to express what I feel.
I’ve shared what the last couple years have been like for us with it’s many trials and concerns. And I have no illusions about how well I handled what life threw at us. In retrospect, I realize there is so much room to have lived it all out in a more Godly manner. Now, know that I do not feel condemned. God does not condemn but He does guide us to wisdom. I finally realized that I carried so much weight on my back that did not need to be there. I have a God who was more than willing to carry the load. I simply stepped in and did it for HIm…not the brightest of moves. Everything gets easier when I give it to Him…lighter load and a river of comfort flows when I do.
Now a couple more stressful trials have come at us and I find myself worrying and plotting and planning…again, me trying to fix life! You would think I could learn but the burden on my back tends to bend me toward the ground where I walk with clay feet,looking down.
So while I am in this position, I think I will drop to my knees and have a talk with my Savior. And i will leave the burden I strapped to my back there for Him to carry from here. He knows my future. I believe He loves me with the dedicated passion of a father. I believe He longs to make hear my voice speaking His Name and sharing life with Him. He calls me to intimacy, a tender place where we are in one accord, one purpose.
Surel goodness and mercy will follow me, hunt me down and stay with me all the days of my life and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever…..refreshing, peace filled and content.